Huntington's and the journey of understanding healing

You know, I'm looking over something that I felt to look over for some reason, and it was something that I was looking into, what was it, yesterday or two days ago that I felt to talk about? But anyways, I don't know anybody with Huntington's, but usually when I perceive things, it's for a reason or whatever. But what I'm going over, there's a few things. What I'm looking over is how one, Huntington's, like,

more about it because I actually didn't remember. I only remembered like an episode of House in nursing school. We didn't really touch on it. So I was looking into something and what came to my mind was this clinic. There's a clinic that's around here in the corner. I was looking at it. I don't know if it's because of my spinal pain that I'm having or something, but usually for some reason,

my brain works I don't know it's just my brain is a little bit strange when I'm in pain anyways um so I'm like maybe that was what triggered it that I've been thinking about that place but anyways I was thinking of um Huntington's and like how it affects the nerves uh well I assumed because I was seeing like a clenched hand or something like not being able to move well so I was thinking of how

Huntington's like develops I know that it's something genetic but I've been looking kind of into different diseases at this point as far as how to if you can you naturally heal I think people get confused about healing they believe which it can I'm not saying that it can't there's nothing impossible but people are under the impression that healing happens

from the drop of the hat from day to night and that there is no participation on our part. And the thing is that the body has capability to heal. The thing is that we lack either the knowledge of how our own diseases like that we have to go through work or because of how it's taught. And the one thing that I've noticed as to why I

sort of like look through things again I'm not a doctor but if in a past life I was that lady that lived in the woods and probably had concoctions and was like come let's heal you like I'm like I swear I was like I think like and it's not because I was like the most it's because of either how my mind is it's weird um

because I have a genuine curiosity that I'm like, oh, I don't like that that exists. How do we fix it? Anyways. But in this particular thing, for some reason, what came to my mind was ketamine and how, because I had looked into it before because of my spinal pain and stuff, they get pretty gnarly because I get electrical shocks. Anyways.

but I didn't like the effects and for some reason Huntington's kept coming to my mind and like stiffness I think there's a few other things that for some reason are coming to my mind but I'm like I have to look into them because everything that I keep perceiving this is when I go if I perceive it I'm not saying that I'm always right I'm just saying that certain things like if I'm clear if I perceive it's for a reason I have no idea anyways

but the ketamine could mimic the Huntington's, but it's also the person who has Huntington's, like genetically, the ketamine makes it worse. And the reason I was also getting into that was because earlier I was talking in a voice clip, and I was like,

I was thinking about how, you know, at times, and I've gone over this before, I actually have a video that's kind of similar, not about this in particular, but I was like, sometimes we have to be aware that the people that are acting really, like if you go, oh, they're just crazy, they're just nuts, and I'm like, they might be acting psychotic, and if you never knew for them to be acting that way, it might be a medicine or something that they're taking. You know, sometimes the people that are around us

they don't know better you know they don't know better and we don't recognize it if it's that you're going through that so um you know i remember doing this months ago probably like five six months ago and um i was talking about something not about this specifically but something kind of along these lines where

You know, sometimes we take things and we don't realize that they're affecting us and how they're affecting us. They're affecting our minds. Well, in this particular case, what came up is pretty interesting because I'm just going to say what I feel like because I'm not publicizing this. But the reason why is because of how...

how everything kept coming to my brain. And I think I even said it in the last voice clip, and this is what I had in mind, but I was like, it's not part of this topic. So let me put it somewhere else. But here it is. But I was like, you know, sometimes like choosing a different path or a lifestyle, like sometimes we underestimate that, you know, it can take us from two years of having a life and we decline to 20 years.

well when i'm looking here because i was like what are the timelines you know um this is something genetic anyway so it's like sometimes the person knows that they've had it since they were young sometimes they don't sometimes they find out older especially now with those genetic tests so you know it depends if it's something that's dormant or not but specifically i was looking into different genetic things because of one of the other things i was researching they cause

Dormant diseases dormant DNA Dormant genetic defects to be asleep until you know you add all of these other things It makes it makes it kind of blossom in a bad way So here what I was interested about was because when I looked at the timeline, it's kind of exactly that You know if it's a fast decline, it's within ten years and if it's

It says here, well, if it's a slow decline, it's 20 to 30 years. And I go, what are the odds? What are the odds that, because I don't know this disease. Like, again, I watched the house episode and I didn't really watch it. I just kind of remember that she said she had Huntington's. And I don't remember enough of nursing school. Maybe it's back there somewhere. But the other part that caught my attention was that

as I'm asking questions about this because I'm like, this for some reason is catching my attention for some reason. And I look at different things, but sometimes I look at things for myself, but I never know. But something here that I was reading, and it's the wording of it.

let me see if i find it because i was pretty like i don't know my synchronicities in life happen and when people say oh i go through synchronicity i'm like you know yes i don't i don't put anybody's synchronicities down i want everyone to experience synchronicity but when i'm talking about synchronicities this is what i'm talking about

I'm reading about how the because I want to know how it breaks down right so Huntington normally helps move materials like vesicles and proteins however before that right before this I get my book randomly I open to any random page because I just ask questions sometimes and I grab things and this is just how I am because life is weird and it opens to fate yes

But the tyrannical circumstance, a vesicle in new circumstances, a vesicle lodged in darkness, folk and thought became animal and light, a plant. Lodged in a parent animal, it suffers changes which end in sheathing miraculous capability in the unaltered vesicle, and it unlocks itself to fish, bird, quadruped head, foot, eye, and claw.

The circumstance is nature. Nature is what you may do. There is much you may not. We have two things, the circumstance and the life. Once we thought positive power was all, now we learn that negative power or circumstance is half. So I read that and then I get here and it says, Huntington normally helps move around like vesicles and proteins along the microtubules.

and what i understood even from what i was reading is that which this is crazy because i've read more of the whole thing and it says the book of nature is the book of fate so what i understood from this too and i'm looking at is that the cells they oxidize more but in this particular person it blocks uh communication between the neurons right

and how it does that also at a cellular level the more stress the more oxidation and this particular disease the cells they cannot um let me see if i find it up here they cannot interact with each other basically it stops them from forming properly or communicating or um

so it says here I want to look for the exact word because I'm in so much pain my spine is on fire today let me go that way it says it creates

here so it plays a key role in brain development and cell function so the stress causes the oxidation rate which causes you know I go further into looking into how it breaks down everything or how the breakdown is right but the brain development the person and again I just think of that time that I did that video it's like the person might go through

go through something that people don't recognize they think oh this person is just being emotional or this person and what it is is that the person is actually dealing with either the effects of the ketamine that are affecting the Huntington's or the ketamine could be mimicking Huntington's but you know if the person already knows that they have Huntington's it's because they've already done testing where they have to measure out

certain things to be sure that the person has Huntington's. They can't just assume it. There's a deficiency there, but there's also a deformity in the cell. So here it says movement disorders, cognitive decline, and psychiatric symptoms. But it's not that necessarily the person is fully declining. It's that that treatment causes this here.

and what I got the perception of from when I read this because it was like right the same word like I was just like um is that the person needed to choose like if you had two paths you have to choose the one of nature like the one that's more peaceful the one that's more stress-free because if not all it's going to do is oxidize the cell which causes a shorter life like a shorter life

and that's why earlier when I was recording I kept hearing that like to like perceiving it's like it's the difference between two years and 20 or 25 years and you know that's what this is so when I'm looking at this the other thing that I'm noticing is that a lot of times when I look at a lot of these things

And mind you, this is how I was trying to repair myself because, you know, they'll just tell you it's genetic, that's it, you're going to be like that forever. And I'm like, there has to be some improvement if it's that we, you know, kind of reverse engineer ourselves, right? But it's that people are not treated individually. If people notice, it's like people get treated as people. And it's like, but you all have a different genetic component.

and then like if this person has you know it's just a cell that has a little tail so you go okay but this person is alive so you don't treat him like a regular patient you have to keep in mind what are the deficiencies and work around them and we treat all the patients the same it's a huge mistake

you know and I know that they think it in theory but I'm like no I mean like even at a cellular level we treat everybody as just human like you don't treat them as okay they have these markers they have this it's like very specific to be able to give them longevity not just

say here, you know, and again, any doctor would argue me with that because I'd be like, well, you didn't know all of the hardcore stuff. And I'm like, okay, well, there were pretty much a bunch of ladies living in the woods back in the day and they were curing people. So, um, there's a lot that exists again. We didn't always have books. We didn't always have the education. So there were certain things that existed that, uh, we go by now, again,

I always think medicine plays a part because when it comes to the medicine it says medicines can help to pause it right but medicines will not help to pause it if the person is either doing that treatment or if see because it'll help postpone it it's going to keep it at bay but what's going to happen is it's not helping you to heal it postponing it so you're just getting closer and closer to the edge and

from what I could tell. It says it slows it, but it's not like, there's other effects, in other words, because of the medicine. I guess I'm gonna look at that, but I think it causes, I don't know why I keep hearing this, but it's like erectile dysfunction. Does it cause it?

yes can cause erectile dysfunction combination of neurological hormonal psychological and physical factors yeah so it causes damage to the basal ganglia and frontal cortex motivation arousal autonomic dysfunction okay so one thing that i was looking at was how exactly

like how exactly why it happens like why at a cellular level it happens and I think I think you know if you have and this is every disease what I'm looking at is if you're too far gone with the oxidation like in the cell then you have to go into the meds because there's there's no way of backwards tracking it like to heal it but what I've been looking into is how to heal it

not just this in particular many things how to bring healing so that you can backwards track it and there's plenty of other you know naturopath doctors that are available nowadays people think that they're you know losing it but they're not we're very capable of healing a lot in our body it doesn't mean that we can

totally fix it it was exactly what I was even saying in the last clip it's not that we can totally maybe heal it 100% some cases right because sometimes the damage is done it's like taking a piece of paper and saying like you took it everywhere you wrinkled it you took it into pieces and then you could tape it back together you can maybe bleach it and clean it off but the paper won't be as the same as the original but it could still be a piece of paper in one piece you know um or you could paper mache that bitch but um

here these type of things here involuntary body functions all of this for me i'm looking out yeah this could be caused by different things because again psychogenic erectile dysfunction so while i don't know why i'm thinking on this like it's like if the person has erectile dysfunction right and they're saying

they're saying it's from the neural degeneration it could be from the depression from the other after effects which could be caused by some medicinal or treatments somebody was supposed to choose or go a more natural route or go a more stress less stressful route something like that weakness muscle weakness fatigue motor difficulty

yeah like someone needs to go a more um like a more natural route like even this chronic neural inflammation impaired autophagy excitotoxicity

yeah because here it's literally like there's people that you would go oh they're not gonna benefit like it won't make a difference you know better that they stay busy and they keep their mind off of it this is not the case this is not the case this is actually quite the opposite neuron stress signals activate microglia brain immune cells chronic inflammation then leads to further neural damage you're actually damaging yourself

Eventually, the affected neurons undergo apoptosis. This is the programmed cell death. This is what I've looked into as to how you could reverse the cell death. Holy moly, says the girl with the spine pain. Especially in the medium spiny neurons of the striatum.

Yeah, there's something else that I'm looking at as far as like the process of how this happens. And I'm like, you know what? I think there's a few things you can do. Synapses degenerate before the neuron dies. Overactivation by glutamine. Yeah, so anyways, what I'm looking at too is that again,

I don't know why like there's just times that I have like um I don't know I just perceive things and it's been bothering me for like a day or two already so I was like I'm gonna make a voice note oh jesus I'm in severe pain I tried to do some little exercises too but they didn't go well for me anyways oh my god

yeah anyways um but i'm going to keep looking into this i don't know i just get this um perception i don't know i keep hearing huntingtons or perceiving huntingtons i get

I'm careful when I say hear I'm like I never hear audibly I never hear anything audibly I just get this perception of like Huntington's being told about Huntington's and this is not maybe the case or it is the case but the stress is literally killing you and it should be taken serious because of the disease itself how it

blossoms and there's ways of through there's ways through like diet through exercise through betterment like a life like lifestyle that you can make the disease not aggressive so that it's slower

yeah and and oh okay i'm gonna have to leave this recording here because i am in horrendous amounts of pain um but yeah um something about stiffening and then erectile dysfunction but again

Sometimes I think that people go through things and they'll be like, oh the person is just acting crazy And it's like no the person is not acting crazy There's there's something wrong here and nobody's noticing like this like they haven't paid attention to this person or something Yeah, I'm like there hasn't

like they haven't paid attention to this person like like hello if you know this person for 20 years and then the person all of a sudden starts acting weird um like like really not themselves um it could be something medicinal something with the medicine or the medicine causing um yeah like some sort of like psychosis of some sort

like people not noticing this is psychiatric and behavioral overlay some cases stress or emotional triggers can worsen the dystonia causes unusual motor behaviors including oof hand clenching because that's what i kept seeing

um trying to see what else i think of but sometimes when i'm in pain it's a little hard for me to think but i think that um yeah i'm gonna further look into this but i'm like no there's a way of fixing this like if the person's not

so hard gone yeah because there's a few things here neurons become hypersensitive uh to glutamate a neurotransmitter excessive stimulation causes calcium overload and leads to cell death so excess stimulation this is stress like if this person didn't

take stress serious but it causes chronic inflammation and it accelerates the cell death and when I read that in the book I was like all I kept seeing it said fate like out of all the pages I land on it says fate and it says the book of nature is the book of fate

And it talks about choosing a more natural path. And when it says vesicle, I'm literally on the part, on this part where I'm looking up. It says vesicle. And what it lands on, yes. Because I said, is this correct what I'm perceiving? And I open it and it says, yes, but the tyrannical circumstance. A vesicle in new circumstances. A vesicle lodged in darkness. Spoken thought.

hmm anyways and it says sheathing miraculous capability in the unaltered vesicle I have another clip to make but I'm kind of like because it's another thought that I have I don't know if it's just that I think while I'm in pain it's not really but maybe this just distracts me anyways I'd have to do more research on this one but this is what came to my mind and has been kind of

on my mind for the past couple of days. So, yeah.